I can't see

Sometimes it is better to be blind. You can see the truth easier.

23:52

Time is passing too fast

I need

A lot of things happen right now. I just hope that happiness is on his way.

I've realized that I need some romance. I'll be really helpful. For everything.

Our happy end

Thank you for everyday we spend together

Thank you for every support

Thank you for staying friends.

You are everything I wish for.

But everything has an end

This is our happy end

Good morning

Wake and realize that it is not the end. Soooo not the end....

Light in a shadow

One of my last works. This was taken by a really serious photographer. But the situation we were taking pictures at was really embarrassing. But that is not the point.

I heard a lot of inspiring words today. Thanks!

Love my university, it is so good to be home!

Like what

- It must be sad to be like this, isn't it?
- It is cold to be like this.
- Like what?
- Like dead.

Wait for me. my dream

I am back. That was a time when dream came true. 

America. A love that word so much. 

I was in Florida. Thank you God for this opportunity to feel like home even for 18 days. 

Now I'm back to Russia. To cold, greed and loneliness. 

I miss you, US. I miss you so much...

One day, I know, we will be forever together. One day..just have to wait.

It

Smoking is the last choice now. Do it. Smoke your heart

??

I wonder where the hell is fate??

My own

And where are you singing my own lullaby??

You are my sweetest downfall

You are my sweetest downfall

I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

(Regina Spector - Samson)

Labirint

Totally lost and lonely, I guess...

This is the end of our big bang

I've finished school. It sounds really weird...I? Have finished?? School???

Sounds unbelievable. I thought that prom night is not about me, but still. It was. 

And now I should made my last step into a big life. This is the end of childhood, which actually was dead for me since the summer 2008.

For now, I have a bunch of modeling work. I had a photo walk with my darling boyfriend on Thursday, on Friday night I was presenting clothes, on Saturday I went to another town to make a serious fashion photo-shoot for an exhibition and today I had even two photo shoots! That is really exhausting cause Moscow is like an oven! Terribly hot, but still - I love it!

^

Today

^Friday

Fashion Live

Remember I've told you about model agency? That I've been accepted?

Well, here is the video from one of my modeling works. It was a photo exhibition of famous Moscow photographer - Masha Korn. She was presenting us - her models, like we are not just a dolls from the pictures - we are real people!

That was an amazing experience!
check video here

Oh baby, it's impossible

I am dreaming about such photo shoot, especially the last picture.

But I think that is impossible like everything I've planed before....

Rain have washed all my sorrows away

It was raining. Well, it was a storm, to tell the truth!

People were escaping. Trying to hide under call-boxes, restaurants, roof...

And Svichy and I were laughing and taking pictures under a rain wall.

I used to be very upset. I don't know why. But rain made me smile and happier, than I could be. It was a magical time.

Will

Sometimes it is hard to resist. Be stronger buddy.

Finita la tragedia

This is it!

I've finished school.

I had last bell this Tuesday.

I wasn't even crying. Cause I'm not sorry for leaving that place. University waits me and that is fantastic.

But to enter it I should pass as always.

But I know I would. I will do it.

Start, finally start

I've been invited to a model agency. That is something magical!

They are doing castings for Harper's Bazaar, Vogue and a other fashion magazines. I am so excited!

That never happened to me before!

Hope it won't be a problem, I still have got a lot of exams to pass.

P.s. This pics were made by my darling Svichy. Sometimes I can't believe that it is me.

Hours and hours

I am walking with my boyfriend for 4 or 5 hours a day.

Oh heels.

That is really painful, bit I feel so happy. I don't know why, that fills me with so many emotions.

Stay positive, for a while.

And yeah. I've made it. I entered the best university in Russia. Thank God. But still there is some test I need to do.

Play

Hide and seek

Work, baby,work

In almost two weeks I'll have a very serious fashion defile-show. That will be the most important work for me right now.

I should diet myself and be absolutely ready.

Hope nothing will distract me!

Addicted

I'm becoming crazy every time I see you. You can call me addicted, but that doesn't mean I can not break your nose.

Be careful with ice

Can not take it

Stupid dreams, broken hearts, apart apart apart

On the other side

I wonder what have happened to you, my reflection...

By the bay of wonderland

I had a great photo shoots with my friends and a famous photographer from Moscow

That was awesome!

Photos by Svichy, visit her page www.svichy.deviantart.com

Photos from professional photo shoot will be later

Good, isn't it?

I'm really inspired by the sun and walking with my friends

They play a great part in my life, I'm very grateful to them!

Also, money is not a big problem anymore, so I feel a bit freer. That can't but rejoice!

Maybe I can loose weight and pass all the exams which I have left.