Bad things/good things

I've just realized that after a very good and happy time in your life you can suddenly feel something...big...empty..upsetting. Hole inside.
And you break down in tears...

There are always bad things after good.

Hope that good things are after bad.......

Summer in 19 days

I miss summer. Miami trip...Sun and an ocean..
I'll be in LA in 19 days. That's the only thing that makes me feel alive

I need

A lot of things happen right now. I just hope that happiness is on his way.

I've realized that I need some romance. I'll be really helpful. For everything.

Our happy end

Thank you for everyday we spend together

Thank you for every support

Thank you for staying friends.

You are everything I wish for.

But everything has an end

This is our happy end

Light in a shadow

One of my last works. This was taken by a really serious photographer. But the situation we were taking pictures at was really embarrassing. But that is not the point.

I heard a lot of inspiring words today. Thanks!

Love my university, it is so good to be home!

Wait for me. my dream

I am back. That was a time when dream came true. 

America. A love that word so much. 

I was in Florida. Thank you God for this opportunity to feel like home even for 18 days. 

Now I'm back to Russia. To cold, greed and loneliness. 

I miss you, US. I miss you so much...

One day, I know, we will be forever together. One day..just have to wait.

Fashion Live

Remember I've told you about model agency? That I've been accepted?

Well, here is the video from one of my modeling works. It was a photo exhibition of famous Moscow photographer - Masha Korn. She was presenting us - her models, like we are not just a dolls from the pictures - we are real people!

That was an amazing experience!
check video here

Rain have washed all my sorrows away

It was raining. Well, it was a storm, to tell the truth!

People were escaping. Trying to hide under call-boxes, restaurants, roof...

And Svichy and I were laughing and taking pictures under a rain wall.

I used to be very upset. I don't know why. But rain made me smile and happier, than I could be. It was a magical time.

Finita la tragedia

This is it!

I've finished school.

I had last bell this Tuesday.

I wasn't even crying. Cause I'm not sorry for leaving that place. University waits me and that is fantastic.

But to enter it I should pass as always.

But I know I would. I will do it.

Start, finally start

I've been invited to a model agency. That is something magical!

They are doing castings for Harper's Bazaar, Vogue and a other fashion magazines. I am so excited!

That never happened to me before!

Hope it won't be a problem, I still have got a lot of exams to pass.

P.s. This pics were made by my darling Svichy. Sometimes I can't believe that it is me.

Hours and hours

I am walking with my boyfriend for 4 or 5 hours a day.

Oh heels.

That is really painful, bit I feel so happy. I don't know why, that fills me with so many emotions.

Stay positive, for a while.

And yeah. I've made it. I entered the best university in Russia. Thank God. But still there is some test I need to do.

Work, baby,work

In almost two weeks I'll have a very serious fashion defile-show. That will be the most important work for me right now.

I should diet myself and be absolutely ready.

Hope nothing will distract me!

By the bay of wonderland

I had a great photo shoots with my friends and a famous photographer from Moscow

That was awesome!

Photos by Svichy, visit her page www.svichy.deviantart.com

Photos from professional photo shoot will be later

Good, isn't it?

I'm really inspired by the sun and walking with my friends

They play a great part in my life, I'm very grateful to them!

Also, money is not a big problem anymore, so I feel a bit freer. That can't but rejoice!

Maybe I can loose weight and pass all the exams which I have left.

Vanish

I fell like in one second I'll fly.

But this won't happened, of course.

Days are going and going, there is less time for my school exams, but I don't care. You know, that even makes me feel better.

But in school I feel so lonely. I've got a lot of great friends there, but we kind of far away from each other. Every hour there is a torture for me..

I've just realize how much money I'll spend on all my prom things and spring-summer shopping. That is a H-U-G-E amount!

I hope we will get through this.

Individuality in banality

So, I've made it. I wrote my exam and now I just have to wait until the results.

The good thing - bye history! Bad - not for long

Anyway, I've just realized that I hadn't have posted my pics for a long time, so enjoy!

Decision that cure me

Tomorrow I have my exam, that will decide my life.

And I will do that.

I'll win it.

That is my decision.

P.S. R.I.P. all the people that died in an accident 29.03.10 in the Moscow underground. That was really hard to believe that there was blood and dead bodies on the station I used to pass almost every day.

Grown up from that hate

Yesterday I was on a fun competition of the university league. Finally, I've met my lovely people, I adore them so much! They are the best that have ever happened to me before.

But the worst thing - I'm not with them. Like a fish out of water, I'm spending my days at school.

I want to be with them so much, that sometimes I even go crazy because of it!

I want to be a student, share same interests and spare same fun time.

Thank God, that is my last year. The only thing I should do - pass my last school exams...

Which some times now, seems impossible. Can you imagine that nobody doesn't even now how to pass yet??

P.S. there are still looser days. every day is looser day

Maybe one time, maybe one day

I've got a very serious exams on 3d and 10th of April.

They will decide my future.

But the only one thing I want now is to dive under a blanket and eat chocolate, reading some interesting book at the same time.

That's like a dream...

Unfortunately, I can't do that

So, Im fighting with everything around on my own....

Spring already?

I was waiting for it sooo long

Finally I see sunshine on a street

Finally snow is melting and I can wear my favorite heels

And finally my soul is singing, it is waking up! Nothing can be better

I love you, spring