Bad things/good things

I've just realized that after a very good and happy time in your life you can suddenly feel something...big...empty..upsetting. Hole inside.
And you break down in tears...

There are always bad things after good.

Hope that good things are after bad.......

Summer in 19 days

I miss summer. Miami trip...Sun and an ocean..
I'll be in LA in 19 days. That's the only thing that makes me feel alive

I can't see

Sometimes it is better to be blind. You can see the truth easier.

23:52

Time is passing too fast

I need

A lot of things happen right now. I just hope that happiness is on his way.

I've realized that I need some romance. I'll be really helpful. For everything.

Our happy end

Thank you for everyday we spend together

Thank you for every support

Thank you for staying friends.

You are everything I wish for.

But everything has an end

This is our happy end

Good morning

Wake and realize that it is not the end. Soooo not the end....

Light in a shadow

One of my last works. This was taken by a really serious photographer. But the situation we were taking pictures at was really embarrassing. But that is not the point.

I heard a lot of inspiring words today. Thanks!

Love my university, it is so good to be home!

Like what

- It must be sad to be like this, isn't it?
- It is cold to be like this.
- Like what?
- Like dead.

Wait for me. my dream

I am back. That was a time when dream came true. 

America. A love that word so much. 

I was in Florida. Thank you God for this opportunity to feel like home even for 18 days. 

Now I'm back to Russia. To cold, greed and loneliness. 

I miss you, US. I miss you so much...

One day, I know, we will be forever together. One day..just have to wait.

It

Smoking is the last choice now. Do it. Smoke your heart

??

I wonder where the hell is fate??

My own

And where are you singing my own lullaby??

You are my sweetest downfall

You are my sweetest downfall

I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

(Regina Spector - Samson)

Labirint

Totally lost and lonely, I guess...

This is the end of our big bang

I've finished school. It sounds really weird...I? Have finished?? School???

Sounds unbelievable. I thought that prom night is not about me, but still. It was. 

And now I should made my last step into a big life. This is the end of childhood, which actually was dead for me since the summer 2008.

For now, I have a bunch of modeling work. I had a photo walk with my darling boyfriend on Thursday, on Friday night I was presenting clothes, on Saturday I went to another town to make a serious fashion photo-shoot for an exhibition and today I had even two photo shoots! That is really exhausting cause Moscow is like an oven! Terribly hot, but still - I love it!

^

Today

^Friday

Fashion Live

Remember I've told you about model agency? That I've been accepted?

Well, here is the video from one of my modeling works. It was a photo exhibition of famous Moscow photographer - Masha Korn. She was presenting us - her models, like we are not just a dolls from the pictures - we are real people!

That was an amazing experience!
check video here

Oh baby, it's impossible

I am dreaming about such photo shoot, especially the last picture.

But I think that is impossible like everything I've planed before....

Rain have washed all my sorrows away

It was raining. Well, it was a storm, to tell the truth!

People were escaping. Trying to hide under call-boxes, restaurants, roof...

And Svichy and I were laughing and taking pictures under a rain wall.

I used to be very upset. I don't know why. But rain made me smile and happier, than I could be. It was a magical time.

Will

Sometimes it is hard to resist. Be stronger buddy.